Tuesday, July 20, 2004

Random Musings #2

Had a much better day today. Dinner, karaoke session with Cres. Had our fill singing Hokkien songs - yes I'm partial to Hokkien songs, so sue me. (Watch out Mel, next time around we're gonna bombard you with these songs...we had our practice) Perhaps the perceived rut I was in was just me being caught up in how stagnant things seem, seem being the operative word here. I do have this Saturday's temp job to look forward to, that of teaching primary school brats science and mathematics. Elementary, I'm sure.
Was just thinking to myself earlier, why do we/I enjoy getting out 'there' so often? By there, I mean the weekly dose of drinking and clubbing. More the former than the latter for myself actually. I do enjoy the occasional drink every once in a while and if that translates to every weekend, I don't see any problem with that. Nothing beats quaffing down cheap wine and beer with good company, in my opinion. But I digress. It is not a matter of wanting to go out and take my chances to see if I get lucky. I'm sure J would agree that I have already got it made when we got together.
It is just that I enjoy a night out in the town sans partner, just to feel rejuvenated again. And if I do get to know someone, I am pretty certain that I wouldn't be jumping off the boat I've been on for 2 years. No one is worth the risk and I believe that unless there's an inherent problem within the couple, no one would risk what they share for a relatively anonymous piece of ass. Having said that, it is still flattering to get a smile or double look-over, simply because I'd probably spent an hour getting ready for the night out and a recognition for the effort would be greatly appreciated, thank you very much!
So there. I'd figured things out. And J, no need to worry about anything at all. It's not about you, it's not about us, it's about me. There was a me before a you, and before an us came along. I have to take care of myself, and on the other hand, I'm just really glad that I get to share a part of it with you.
It's sorted out then. All's well with the world. =)


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